Bloody Puppets….

“Unwilling, Ineffective and Disrespectful…”  Up until yesterday I think the closest I have come to Disrespectful is flying a rather beefy  helicopter at full noise, far too low over the head of a very grumpy Colonel…. I must be...
Dad Doesn’t Know…..

Dad Doesn’t Know…..

We all dream…. Every night…. It is an indisputable fact that goes with being human…. Sometimes we remember the stories that unfold in during our deepest sleep, and perhaps more often, we don’t I am prone to visceral, vivid dreams. Complex,...
Positive Dialogue…

Positive Dialogue…

Jane : “Did you pick up the Milk and Eggs from the IGA” Me:  “No, I’m far to gruesome to go shopping at the moment” Jane: “I need you to be positive !” Me: “Oh I am certain, I am absolutely positive I am too...

Beyond Tired….

I think perhaps I am Tired…. Tomorrow is another 400km round trip interspersed by a battle of wits with a large ugly beast with many arms, frantically waving in multiple directions and threatening to cause chaos and mayhem. I’m not convinced I am anywhere...
Fix a Moog, Fix a Mood ?

Fix a Moog, Fix a Mood ?

This weekend, I have been repairing  and rebuilding one of  Dr. Moogs instruments. The damage was a broken shaft on one of the many knobs controlling the various parameters.  It annoyed me, and needed replacing. Beneath the exterior panels of any...
Heavy Sleeper

Heavy Sleeper

At some stage in my childhood I discovered that covering my bed in large hardback books, and sliding carefully beneath the sheets produced a comfortable sensation. The weight of the books somehow providing a degree of comfort, and a sensation of calm. Of course it was...
Black Dogs and Hoovers

Black Dogs and Hoovers

There is a very old joke about a guy going down to an operating Theatre, just before he is handed over to the Anaesthetist, he asks the Doctor if he will be able to play the violin after the operation. “Of course” replies the Doctor. The man smiles and...
Happy Birthday Dad

Happy Birthday Dad

Today I phoned my Father. It is his Birthday and  when remembering his Birthday I can’t help but recall his fondness for huge celebrations on the 28th of August.  There were long weekends away, and alcohol fuelled hi spirited laughs, that I...
Remember Your Manners….

Remember Your Manners….

Manners are incredibly important…. Even Chewie, our adorable little Labradoodle has a basic grasp on Manners. With this in mind, I need to pass on a message of thanks…A sincere expression of gratitude….I am just Remembering my Manners… So, to...
I’m in a  Good Moog(d)  :)

I’m in a Good Moog(d) :)

Yesterday was a day off… My first goal was to try very hard to put all thoughts of Gantt Charts, Missing Resources, and shrinking timelines behind me, or more accurately, in front of me. I’m not leaving them behind, I’m just pushing them up front...
Big Feet Small Steps

Big Feet Small Steps

I love my new job.  Yes I was living in dread for a week or so. However it looks like the trip from  absolute fear,  to complete engagement,  has taken around twelve days. Over a bowl of Pasta the other day, my incredibly smart Son, listened...
Big Change….

Big Change….

Another quick Blog tonight, because my head is full of work stuff. However It just occurred to me that one of the major changes since my transition has largely slipped by unnoticed. A  very subtle and steady shift that has taken about 4 years….. Let me put...
Why ?

Why ?

I’ll keep it brief tonight, because this is  a big question and it needs lots of thought… “Why is it apparently so much easier for everyone else to accept me, than it is for me to accept myself ?” This question has been prompted by the...
Pretty Scale –

Pretty Scale –

I’ve worked in IT for pretty much most of my adult  life. I had humble beginnings, operating ancient Mainframes on long hard night shifts. Whilst my colleagues snoozed or chatted I got stuck into reading the massive volumes of technical manuals, on CICS and...
Harmony at Chorus

Harmony at Chorus

The week has been long, tiring, and occasionally emotional, but all  in an overwhelmingly positive way. Yes I was anxious, but surely that’s normal for a new job…..? So…..How am I  ? Let me spell that out with the Chorus  from a...
Unfair Comparison

Unfair Comparison

If there is one thing that I can remember doing for my entire life, apart from Breathing and Eating, it is comparing myself to others.. In these  comparisons, I’m never favoured. I am harder on myself than I ever could be to anybody else.  This habit...
Maintaining my Composing

Maintaining my Composing

I find it fairly easy to write a sentence, a paragraph or even an essay. Heck, given enough time I can manage it in reasonable Italian, or Latin.  For the last couple of months much effort has been expended to further my understanding of  the basic rules of...
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